loser...

I'm doing something for nothing...
Something that never granted me with anything..

But i'm work hard for it...
For something that can't be mine..
And suddenly..., i noticed that...
I'm tired..
I'm sick...
I'm hurt...
I'm bleeding inside...

But who cares...

And that y u shud let it go lieya..
But i just can't......

I admit now... that i'm loser...

Kifarah

Sakit itu menghapus dosa kecil..

#redha

Actually.., its happen mase subuh jumaat..
Bgn tdo mcm biase.. nk g switch on lampu.. then terase pening sgt... everything nmpk spining..
Pastu terpk mungkin sbb bgn mengejut jer kot td.. then tarik nafas smbil memapah kt dinding..
Gagahkan jugak g toilet.. buat everything smbil pejam mata... (sakit kpala n pening is totally different)

Kluar toilet mmg xley buat ape dh... terus amek panadol extra.. 2 biji.. n laying on d bed...
Lock jam kul 6.40... ya tuhan... bile baring tu nk pusing kepala pun xboleh.. tekak nie pun tahan pening nk muntah...

Then decide mmg xbley drive.. xlarat n xbley nk g keje.. i text my boss n told him i try to work half day... pastu sent jer msg tu terus pakse diri tdo... pastu bgn kul 9.40... try to direct look at the plain wall.., still x stabil lg.. try duduk n tunduk... hhuhh!! Terus rase nk muntah... amek lg panadol extra 2biji... text my bos ckp still xik n unable to work... lelapkan mata smpai kul 12... much better... ntah dari mane dtg plak selseme n batuk yg agak teruk..(actually mmg agak lama dh batuk.. 2-3minggu ade kot.. tp x teruk.. dia ade time2jer batuk 2..)

Dh lama sgt xkne mcm nie... dh bertaun jugak kot.. migrain yg dtg dgn effect pening sgt seksa... sbb langsung xley buat pape...

Even dh 2 ari ni effect dia still ade...
Time solat tu.., part sujud mmg tuhan jer yg tau.. bgn dari sujud klu x bebetul mmg tumbang lar jwbnye...

Mungkin bdn nie penat sgt.. nk berehat gaknye...
Tp xley rehat lelama... byk sgt keje nk kne buat..... :((

#getwellsoonlieya!

20082014

Assalamualaikum...
Actually since last week plan tuk nk update belok ini.. heeee..
Tp apakan daya.. kekangan kerja dan part time student yg teramat berat nk dipikul..

Ok.. below are item yg nk di update

1. Selamat hari raya! Maaf zahir batin! Minggu nie baru nk rase mood raya... sbb bru abis final isnin ritu..

2. Happy belated birthday to me!! (0908)
Nothing special... selain usia yg semakin menginjak dan menghampiri angka 3x..
Mcm biase ler soklan cepu longkang yg diorg tnye.. okehh mls nk ckp dh..

3. Keje.. penat.. bosan.. geram.. sedih.. semua nilai2 "murni" time keje tu mmg i pukul rata okeh!!! Dammmnnn..

4. Just fin my 2nd sem... and final exam were soooo "exciting".. huh!! I already prepared myself for any consequences... #nangessssberderaideraiairmata

5. Lately nie i admire kt zilfaezrul uuuuhh.. things that i wish for my future soulpartner.. hahahhaha.. demand!!

6. Kbai.. #kepalapeningotakberserabuthatikusut

Salam ramadhan..

Assalamualaikum..

Berabuk sudah page nie eh.. ;))

Di kesempatan ini sy nk mengucapkan selamat berpuasa dear all readers...
Selamat berjuang menempuh cabaran & dugaan hawa nafsu... insyallh..

For me.., routine xbyk berubah.. makin sibuk lg ade lar... maklumlaah..  keje lain.. assignment nyer lain... alhmdllh.. arni dh cmplete class for my 2nd sem.. #mbainmaking ... now tgh struggling buat assignmnt..

Anyway.., dont forget to #pray4gaza.. saudara2 kite kt sgt perlukan doa...!

Sampai jumpe lg.. insyallh.. luvhugs&kisses

Me is busy

Dear mysite.. it was long time since my last entry is it?? Me is quite bz.... errgghhh.. huh!

Oh myyyy...
My head just can't stop thinking..
Lot of things need to care..

1. New model for proto ( ← bhsa industry which means prototype stage) on 15 may
Need for meeting+meeting+meeting+report+report+request n demand from designer, management... ergghhhh!!!!!!

2. My 2nd sem will start on 10th may
Class class class!

3. Comittee for compny 20th anniversary - need to start to prepare.. searching for talents ( as me were selected as entetainmnt leader)

4. Company gwp team.. - as team building leader..
What?? Collect fund?? Cover for my teamate that will resign soon.., erggghhhhh!!!!

5. Internal 5's committee members..
Office condition?? Reply red tag!!! Dammm it!
Please 5's ur own space n work station. Can u?????!

6. Current model defect need for analysis..
Ergghhh!!! My model is my model.., but how come ur model be mine??? That such a *#$@!

7. New third party model come in?????!!!
If me were choosen to incharge.., again.... than i will totally collapsed!

Look messy n teribble huuh??
But some how.., i still love my job.

Ok.. thats it..
Gud nite.. luv&hugs