comeback from hari raye

salam...

hari ini dah masuk ari kedua aku kt gombak pas 8 hari berhari raye kt umh.... waaaa... so tired lor once dah start claz balik.... keje makin byk.... assgnmt menimbun cm tinggi gunung everest... tekanan darah kt otak menjadi tinggi bler memikirkan final semakin dekat... woow.. luper lak.. project microcontroller yg kne siapkn sebelum final... exactly timing dia adalah submit mase minggu nk konvo kktmpj lak tu... aduyai... viva+report... dgr cite lak cct project tu rege dia mau beratus lak... ades! bju konvo xbeli lagi nie... kasut konvo pun xder.. waaaaa... ngan bil strymx kt umh sewe yg dah 2- bulan xbyr ( bkn xnk byr, bill x sampai.. tp skrg dah wat cimbclicks.. masuk elaun jer terus byr nnt)... seb baik ader duet rayer yg ley cover2 ckit finance bulan nie....

dapat lar aku simpulkan di sini sekembalinyer aku dr berhari rayer jalan idup aku kembali mengalami kesesakkn lalulintas tatkala highway PLUS kembali lenggang

salam sesuci n seindah lebaran

berakhirnya ramadhan yg penuh kerberkatan dengan kesedihan.... didatangi kita dgn syawal yg membawa kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan... ditafsir kembali segala kekhilafan lantunan lidah.... dikenang kembali rahsia hati yg tak terdedah.... diingat kembali kesilapan laku dan kesalahan tingkah... lantas ku sucikan hati dan bersih jiwa... seikhlas kemaafan ku pohon... segalanya dr mu akn ku beri ampun... salam sesuci dan seindah lebaran... dengan ingatan tulus ikhlas maaf zahir dan batin ~~lieya~~

di kehinggan petang 27ramadhan....

dikehingan ptg 27 ramadhn....

sahabatku yg "busyuk" menghantar sistem pesanan ringkas pdku.... yg berbunyi

sahabat busyuk : kt ne..
aku : kt umah lar.. ko kt ner..
sahabat busyuk: kt umh.. jd x?
aku: its upto u... xkesah pun..
sahabat busyuk: dah lambat.. ko roger ker.. dah setel discrete
aku : bru siap task satu
sahabat busyuk: baru buat task 1 nk g shopping
aku: (mase nie 1.30ptg...terase jauh hati pd ketike ini dan mengabaikan sms dia...)
sahabat busyuk : nk g x, aku nk g kt train dh ni.. (mase nie 2.48ptg)
aku : (hati berbunge2 kembali.. lantas teringat hasrat hati nk beli tudung ct nurhaliza tuk my mama) ko nk tunggu kt maner..
sahabat busyuk: kt bank negara.. aku naik train...

dengan terbalasnyer msg itu maka naik lar aku akn bas permata kiara yg agak old skool tu ke sogo (kreek.. kreek.. bunyik dier) n termetrai lar xtvt shopping menyopping pd arini....

dan hasilnyer........... wahhh.. bagus sekali.... sampai abiz duet dlm peti besi... seb baik jumaat nie nk balik dah... antara brg2 yg aku beli..

1. tudung ct nurhaliza mama a) versi mak datin b) versi sopan santun.. murah jer.. 1set rm15 hengget(kedai muaz jer tau kt jln tar)



2. kasut canteq yg simple n sgt murah.... rm35++.... lupe lak harge.... xbranded r tp... janji aku selese....

3. baju kurung yg ke2... yg first k.oly dah belikan.. ( dah raye bru ley upload gmbar ek).. bju nie sgt murah jugak... 50hengget jer... bju yg sgt seksi sebb jarang, tp kain dia ok jer... bju kurung pesak gantung...

4. tudung mama ala2 ariani punyer label... 45 hengget
5. bju arina n amani ( brand poney) pk lar baper harge.. seb baik sale kt sogo.. lau x xmampu aku..
6. bju amat n alin ( poney n seed pnyer brand)
7. baju alip n denan ( forest n bum)
8. rantai glamour ala2 datin kaler grey- 10hengget jer..

total sumer dlm 300 hengget kot.... ok lar tu... (seb baik time sale...)

itu lar antara brg yg aku beli disekitr sogo, jln tar and maju junction....
thnx to my sahabat "busyuk" coz nk teman aku....

k lor... dkesempatan ini nk wish kt sume selamat hari raye... maaf zahir n batin...

c u on my next typing.... daaaaa....

lieya is berstatus sangat penat....

astgfrullhalazim.... terlalu penat ku rasekan diri ini utk bekerje sekaras ini... mungkin inilah dugaan ramadhan ku kali ini... kepenatan yg aku rase sampai kdg2 kale aku nk ignore jer segala mcm kerjer yg ader nie... penat segala2nyer... jiwe rage.. akal fikiran.. ape kekuatan yg aku ader tuk mengharungi dugaan ini? nothing... except............... gambaran pengharapan mama n abah yg sentiase berlegar dikepala.... jgn putus asa lieya.... selagi bertali arus pengantungan kiter pada allah, berusaha n bertawakal, insyallh segalanyer dapat di atasi... sabar lar jiwa... sabar lar semangat.. sabar lar diri... sabar lar segalanyer... kepenatan itu xkn pernah hilang dr diri kite lieya.... we have to faced with it... walau aper pun yg terjadi.... bersabar lar... insyallh, segalanya akan ber akhir pada hari rabu nie.....

hati menangis siapa tahu...

salam all..

hari ini dah masuk hari ker 23 kite berpuase ( if i not mistaken lar- pliz count back by ur own ya!).. xtau lar naper, but felt so sad last nite.... at a moment, my eyes suddenly want to drop her tears.. i say to my big black shining eyes not to do dat... just pliz be strong ant keep all the tears for beautiful moment only...

i try to hide my c2ation from my housemate, my 'busyuk ' frenz and everyone.. but i know sum of then can see the changing attitude of me... i really dun no way my dearest tears want to come out...

when my heart shout my 'mama', i felt down... is it because i can't go to jln TAR to buy her a sitinurhaliza tudung?? i really dunno... at that moment, in my mind i just want to run very fast to reached home and meet her for a while... is it happend because i miss her?? or i miss him??

him??? yes him... the damn people that fragile my red sweet heart... is it really i miss him?? or i really miss the moment when i hv been treated as a person that called as 'girlfrenz'??

may b its true... i'm not missing him, but i miss my self to b a girlfrenz... so sad lar u lieya.. :( pity of u... u r nw 23 years old but didn't have bf... but why should i felt like that??? is it because of my "no 21" alwiz interferer me with such stupids couple2 story.. is it because i'm really nausea when sum of people in 'no 21'alwiz interfrem her bf, scandles and so what ever man that they hv , in front me? am i jealous when so what ever people bought them sumthng for hari raya??? and for me? even want to go to jln TAR n sogo also should be canceled becoz nobody want to accompny me?? am i really2 alone now???

one big question mark play around me... i'm i need all that nonsense 'so watever people' in my life????? need i??? NO!!no lieya u didn't need it for now!wat u have to do now is just focus in ur study!be a successful people! make ur parents and family proud with u! and make all the nonsense people jealous with u bcoz of ur succsfullness not becoz of damn 'so wat ever people' that u hv...

normally the nonsense people with their ' so watever people' didn't solve their problem by themselves.. they just waiting for the answer from the rest... at the time they want my ans, i feel like i wnt to kill them all.. so that they will not playing around me anymore and i can have my life peacefully...

ooppsss!!! i thnk i'm now so far away from post my title... :D ... the main point here is, i miss my mama and i want to buy her a siti nurhaliza tudung... but i cn't make it... just hope i can find in my way going back to kg thiz friday....

gud bye for now....

aku bukan perempuan sejati klu hidup berkalung lelaki

salam...

actually phrase tu aku dapat mase tgk cite perempuan berkalung serban.... aku suke sgt meaning dia...

yerlar kite sebagai pempuan ni xley r idup berantung pada lelaki nie... kne ade usaha n inisiatif sendiri... jgn harap org nk sponser jer.... kn klu ditakdirkn dia bkn utk kite, mati kutu dibuatnyer... aku mcm xbrape berkenan lak ngan org yg klu nk aper suke mintak org belikan... ermm.. tp terpulanglar kn.... tp klu org tu husband sendiri xde aku nk kesah plak... nie org tu idup pun berterabur lg....

datz y klu kite dah keje nnt pu, klu rase mampu nk keje, baik kite keje.... jgn bergantung pada suami sgt.... kne lar ader give n take... tp jgn asik nk take jer xpernah nk give2... nnt klu suami tinggalkan si isteri, at least si isteri masih tau nk idup berdikari... xder lar duk menangis 48jam pk jln nk idup cmner....

pada aku pape pun, kepuasan tu akn kite rase lau kite sendiri berusaha tuk dapatkn nyer...

(catatan nie xder kne mengena ngan yg idup atawpun yg tlh meninggal dunia)